Katie says (8:56 PM): yeah. the suju anon that talks about zhou mi alot
or awkward boys
):
Rae says (8:56 PM): so obvious : )
Katie says (8:57 PM): ...alas. i am as obvious as qmi love ):
Rae says (8:57 PM): siwon

this is what i do instead of making an lj post. rae, stop distracting me )):

But hello there fine flist. I have spent the last week getting sick, starving, ignoring homework or alternatly, staying at school till really late to do homework, skipping class, fangirling various things, feeling restless, courting death and illness by walking around chinatown/union square in the rain, and skipping sleep by wasting time on kpopficwangst. such is my life. it is quite fail ):

But it was Ka and my dad's birthdays on Thursday xD And I have discovered I'm apparently rather good as this whole beta/give concrit thing. and also, aparently people like me. yay for my win. even if my life fails epically (for example, see this)

fandomwise, Yamapi's loveless came out. I actually really love it. The mv is gorgeous, even if I kinda loled at it. And I love the song a lot :DDD Nicole I direct you to it

Also, sometime last week Taeyang's Wedding Dress MV came out. this does not help me in my avoidance of becoming a Big Bang fan. Especially since I've fallen rather epically in love with BB's 声を聞かせて. the song is much better then where you at? and the mv is really really wonderful :)

also, it amuses me, finding people, who listen to music i used to, or stuff like i used to. it's nice being able to go akjlsjda american music at people. and also, send them links like crazy on youtube. brings me back to freshmen year and being young and in love ♥

also, i need a sm supporter icon for all the posts in omona now xD

and also, i have been working on this post for hours and just want to finish it. and avoid going all rage-y over dbsk

so, brown-eyed girl's song sign is amazing, slightly old now, and stuck in my head. also, Kim Taewoo's Memory and Remembrances is old but one of my favorite kpop songs ever. also i do love 2pm's new album even if i wtfed at their mv. and i've become such a shinee fan it is ridiculous- too much binge reading of fic. and Bloody Monday season 2 is confirmed. the badassey. i am ecstatic. also, got rae into epik high. she sadfaces because tablo is married.. but she has anyband to rewatch xD i miss nicole and get home monday night. i need to find fillipino food so rae doesn't stone me. third part of my meme reopens soon too and aksldajlsd excited but goodbye life.

i have a headache. that is all. well also, x-mas card post before this one if you missed it. please to be directing yourself here. now bedtime. xD

Rae says (1:37 AM): but that's not a part of the game ): he has to die ))):
Rae says (1:38 AM): he has to die at your hand ):
you have to kill one of my baises ):
Katie says (1:38 AM): ...well, there is always voodoo resurection then? xD
Rae says (1:38 AM): lol
Katie says (1:38 AM): and hay, you killed a plenty of my baises xD
Rae says (1:38 AM): siwon ):
Katie says (1:38 AM): haha. wait, i need to add that bit to my lj post too.

/end post

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KA! ♥

your present? xD

You are awesome and amazing and wonderful and I love you a lot and hope you had an awesome birthday. I meant to get this posted earlier, while it was still your birthday in Brasil...but hey, it's still your birthday over here! xD/fail. But basically, you're brilliant and I'm sorry I've been really busy/lazy/lame and we haven't talked much in the last week or two. We should talk more soon, y/y? xDD I LOVE YOU ♥

...for the rest of you folks, I swear I'm not dead. I'm going to make a legit post later. Probably tomorrow. Also, Christmas cards post, it's going to happen. :DD Love you all ♥

ahaha. so this is what Rae and I spend 3-4 hours writing/texting/tweeting at each other. arn't we amazing.

( A Super Junior Poem )

and now, i'm off to pretend i took no part in this. oh my brain xD

firstly, i would like to preface this entry by saying my nails are fucking epic. beyond epic. basically, they look like this. except a little more pink. ridiculously epic.

secondly, this is going to be a combination of a post i meant to make on friday, and one i meant to make last night, and also, a post in which i attempt to avoid homework and life. therefore, epic post is going to be crazy epic. and contains a thousand cuts oh my god. so much too say, so few words to properly convey my glee.

( my friday post (only slightly edited) ) <( and now, the rest of my rl adventures )

( and now the epic fandom portion of this already epic post xDDDD -dies- cut for pictures, videos and spazz xD )

( oh, and lastly ) ♥~!

ALL OF K-POP IS A CONSPIRACY

jaebum would be proud -.-

( tl;dr real life. feel free to ignore. )

(also, random, but dbsk idek wtf is up with you. but oh watch me be apathetic :|)

i don't even know what is up with this post. i feel so cracked in the brain atm.

I'm home. :DD Yesterday was a stressful day of buses being delayed and me getting lost in the airport and freaking out over missing my plane. But it was fun and ridiculous and chinese was awesome (i was talking to the bb and shinee fans in my class on wednesday and they were all you should totally come to hollywood bowl with us this year aksjlda xDDD/random) and my astronomy lab was a lot of fun once i got out of my weird funk from last week. :D and i hate flying but my plane ride was awesome. because i was on Virgin America. and they have these cool little screens on the back of every seat where you can play games or listen to music. of course, mine broke after 20 minutes (;____;) but i did get to listen to the JPOP radio station they had (the moment i turned it on DBSK's Beautiful Woman started playing. i nearly died snickering ♥). i also amused myself by writing random haesica (wtf. idek. i was trying to write qmi or something xD) and i had my ipod so it was awesome.

of course my ears didn't pop till sometime after i feel asleep. that's my least favorite part of flying. my ears don't pop so it feels like my head is going to explode during landing.

but it's so awesome being home! i haven't been home for two months but everything still feels familiar- like a worn memory or an old song on the radio i loved. it's nice :) AND ALL THE ROOMS ARE SO BIG AKJDSL. i'm so used to small rooms xD and there is a kitchen! and my futon! and all my old pictures and posters and cards on my wall. and my cat ♥ i missed my baby ):

and i got to drive again today :DDD god i miss driving. it felt so natural. :) and i got onigiri and went to mitsuwa and got royal milk tea boba and it was awesomeeeee.

and then my family went to my little sisters play. they are doing Bridge to Terebithia. i cried at the end ;__; it was cute. and then i went to the pizza afterparty. akdslja THESE KIDS NEED TO STOP GROWING. MY CYT BBS DD: i swear, kyler is all legs now, and rachel and kara are freshman now and danny looks so much older. aksjlda -cannot comprehend-

also. i have been informed CL is my age. akjdsla WHAT IS THIS?! korea stop fucking with my brain. ):

but anyways. tomorrow i am getting in-n-out. and doing other things. idk. i don't have internet in my room so i have to stay downstairs so it's frustrating. i still have so many comments i want to reply to, but i am lazy DD: i swear, tomorrow, sometime i will. i'm sorry flist, for my fail DD:

dajlkdaskl ♥

( also, random long-ass meme i stole rom joann xD )

and also also, i really like yamapi's new solo. it's pretty *_____________________*

So. So today has been awesome.

I was almost late for my bus because rae and I were having an amusing conversation about kyuhyun’s awkward courtship of ga in. and then I got to the station and my bus appeared in a minute. Wiiiinnnn. And then Chinese was generally fun (except she pushed back our midterm till tomorrow which is lame because I just want to get it done ;_;) and I headed off to eat, and then wait outside my classroom studying Japanese. Joann, who is in my Chinese class, has Biology in the classroom right before my astronomy lecture so we talked before she went off to class. And then I studied and realized if I took the test now I could get probably a D+…yay for knowing more than I thought I did xD

And then I studied through my lecture (where i was sitting a seat away from a girl watching sj's happiness and it's you mvssss xDD) until I got a text from rae. Which resulted in amusing texts for the next hour until I got stranded in a tunnel for 40 minutes on the bus. all the underground buses/lightrails stopped running and i got kicked off five stations too early, walked the wrong way up two really huge hills, and then figured out the right way and hopped on a rehular bus. I got off near japan town and then it started to sprinkle/rain so my bangs got wet. But it was still sunny so there was a rainbow in the distance. And so I walked for 15 minutes in this devil’s wedding before I got on another bus and three buses and two hours after I left campus I got home. (which all sounds bad but guys, it was so much fun. An ~adventure~ and I had my himnae mix on which is basically all of snsd/sj/sjm’s upbeat songs ^__________________^ it never fails to make me want to laugh and smile and dance and sing along)

once home, i accidently called rae which ended up with me talking to her on the phone and her not being able to hear me because she was walking home and it was really windy xDDD also, i just fail at phones in general. but it was amusing. and then we hung up and i proceeded to stress over trying to text my sister and rae at the same time (because yes, the normal thing to do when you hang up after talking is to start texting them xD). And then there was twitter and amazing awesome talks on msn and I’m going to stay with my sister for Halloween weekend at UCSB (XD) and then there was facebook being evil and ridiculous but I triumphed and rae and I have now fought crime and I have made it to 1000 tweets which I blame all on rae ksjdalsk who has totally turned my world on its axis wookie cannot be taller than me and you will always be rae and aksdjlakdjsla ;_______________;/stresses also. do you like how often i have mentioned you in this entry xDDDD

And now I am supposed to be studying. Except I am on lj instead. Because I am too weak (rotfl) and cannot resist the shiny.

But it really just caps off my day being ridiculously awesome because the first thing I see on my flist is ANNA BEING THE BIGGEST SWEETHEART EVER AT 3:14 IN THE MORNING ♥ !!!

akjdakldsa the world, even when you suck more than anything else, you are still too awesome. And I know and have known the most amazing people ever and I am so lucky and happy and sappy and I love you all thank you for being so gorgeous (lmao) ♥!!!

and Nicole, you need to be mentioned here so askjdakldsjal I LOVE YOU SFM ♥ you'll always be my number one korette desuteni~

but now i'm really going off to study. and finish a comment i have been working on for hours aksjdlakl soon i will actually be awesome and reply to all your lovely comments~

so let's talk about how i am the worst roommate ever. oh my god. i finally, after a month, have talked to my roommate. why did i get this sudden courage? because she came it at 11, sniffling. she's been sick so i thought it was that. until she started crying ...i feel like the worst person ever. it took me like, five full minutes of shifting around indecisively on my bed before i got the guts to climb down and ask her if she was alright. DD: she is so sweet and precious and nervous. and she'll be here till january and she always says her english is terrible, and that her pronunciation is horrible but hell her english pronunciation kicks my chinese pronunciations ass ): and she kept saying how she always wanted to talk to me but got too nervous and would just go out instead and she kept saying sorry and i kept going no no i'm sorry. and god. we are kinda so alike. it is terrible ): but akjsdlja she is so sweet and sad and precious and smart and i am a terrible person for taking this long to finally talk to her but i shall redouble my efforts!

also, i admitted my love for super junior and so nyeo shi dae too, so i am proud. it made her smile and look surprised. this. this is going to work out. operation roommate chingu hwaiting! jiayou! ganbatte!

♥ also also. she called me cute. i don't think she realizes it but she now has my undying love. anyone who thinks i'm cute is the most amazing, crazy person in the world -preens- adskj she is so adorable

i- things are starting to look up :)

but i have also spent this entire weekend not studying, fangirling SHINee, watching some of the ever growing list of videos i need to watch, watched the first four episodes of You're Beautiful (kjdalksda nooooo. this is why i don't watch kdrama. shinwoooooo don't be the yul/violin man to what-his-face's shin/junpyo. noooo. i like you so much better ;________; hongki's jeremy is utterly A+ though :DDD), and reading lots and lots of fic. or well, a few really long fic. i cannot decided if i want to strangle or hug whoever invented merlin big bang. brb sobbing at my lack of productiveness.

alas. there is so much i want to fangirl properly still not touching the kangin thing though because i cannot handle that coherently, not when people's comments make me so mad and my thoughts on it are still a mess but just ajsdlkakd i have a chinese midterm tomorrow, followed by a chinese oral on wednesday (which is going to end badly. because my chinese pronunciation is terrible. and it has to be memorized. and i can't even speak english in front of a group of people so how the hell am i going to be able speak chinese without failing miserably ;________________;) and after that, is my astronomy midterm and my japanese kanji writing midterm (yes, all on wednesday), both of which i haven't started studying for.

so yes. basically. i am going to fail out of college. D:

But i will link you all to this because Henry playing I'm Yours on his violin, before turning it into a ukele/guitar and singing is kinda one of the greatest things of my life like pimping minho out to rae or rearranging our will sleep with suju members in this order lists. or having nicole as the most amazing best friend in the world ♥ and therefore needs to be shared with the world.

xDD now goodnight everyone. i am off to do productive things like listen to SHINee's new mini-albumsleep. xD ♥

edit because fandom decided to be even more awesome by giving me li yin's new mv which honestly doesn't disappoint at all. a lot of people thought the slideshow was lame but idgaf what they think, i love it. the pictures are gorgeous and they tell such a story and guys this is how i see things in my head a lot-like picture slideshows in my head so akjadslj. and donghae. just. donghae looked so gorgeous. just. god. his face. it is beautiful. he is like the perfect boyfriend and the perfect husband and the perfect father and why isn't he the father to my children yet?. and just akdja his green jacket thing and his white shirt and his smile and his little ponytail. i want a donghae too ): and li yin, who i have never found particularly gorgeous, looks so pretty. and i do like the song, even if it leans towards boring.

basically. i just kinda epically love it. it is so adorable and sweet and beautiful and so heartbreaking at the same time. just. A+ akdsjak

( My weird, introspective thoughts on life while on the bus; aka: the part of this post you ignore. :D )


rl wise, my day has been much better. i think i really just needed to get things out of my system. i'm not happy but i'm okay and that is good enough for me. :)  i didn't have chinese this morning so i got to stay at home till about noon- before i headed off for my astronomy lecture and a group meeting in Jay Paul's dorm for our journalism project. idk. i had fun. the people in my group are cool :) and the village has such nice rooms. i want to live their ):

i've also spent at least two hours reading about serial killers on wikipedia- something i blame compeltly on dark3princess akjsdal annnnaaaa. my brain ;___; but it was also sunny today, and i talked to nicole for a little bit before she ditched me for a nap. college has ruined her. she used to think 11 pm was late. now she's calling me at 1:30 AM and i have to sneak out into my hall so i don't disturb my roommate. oh nicole. you crazy weird girl. i love you and i'm so glad you are my best friend ♥

but anywyays, let's talk about the highlights in fandom right now because all the bad makes me sadface epically i'm not even going to get into kangin's situation right now because i cannot handle it. my mental state is too fragile for meta on that ;__;. for example,

Epik High's High Technology MV- part two of the host parody. it's gonna be their last mv for a while (2012 ;___;) but damn do these boys go out in style. it is utterly hilarious, like part 1, idek. i have no words.

also, SHINee's Ring Ding Dong MV. brb loling forever. i'll admit, i love this song. like, in a legit, totally non-lulzy way. it is so catchy and fun and adklsj. but this mv. oh this mv. if it's going to be fail at least it's a piece of very polished, well-made fail xDD snicker forever at the wings. and the car just makes me think of Harry Potter XDDD

also, this sjm fancam. i think it's a bad case of Stockholm Syndrome when i'm actually starting to like Henry's pants. i blame it on the distracting leather jacket. xD But really the best part about this clip is Zhou Mi. akjdshadskjla that boy ♥ my bias, he is it. i laughed so hard at him, the dork. akjsld ♥ !!!

and lastly, Taec and Wooyoung back on Inki this makes me happy. i need more 2pm in my life. now will they give me the last episode of wild bunny so i can bawl my heart out? ):

oh fandom. i love how half of these things are really closely related to the things that suck in fandom atm ;_;

also kajdljakldlksal. why didn't anyone tell me yonemura left question? ;_______; je fandom, it was all this heartbreak that made me leave you. stop doing it to meeeeee D:

akjsdlja just me not being ridiculously depressed makes me so much happier and flaily. akjshdalksakldjsal ♥

and now, to catch up on flist and reply to comments ♥ksjdalds why are my posts always so long? ;___; i write too much DX

fuck life. no really. just. fuck life.

( my emologue. )